Commemoration Hour by Adam Horovitz

A moth-cupped flame sputters

out of silence in my kitchen, draws insects

whining through the window’s crack.

..

They sing like distant bi-planes,

dogfight-dancing at the edge of sight.

..

I watch red wax spill

over the candle’s battered lip

and think of family, long dead,

..

the quiet men on unquiet fronts

who let the rituals of their religion

..

slide away, buoyed up

on propaganda, desperation, hunger,

as they wrote loving letters in the dark

..

succoured only by a single flame,

by the guttering distances of home.

..

Oh, how they dreamed of family,

gave thanks to G-d for the minuscule mercies

of the weekly post (when it got through)

..

but even the gentlest man will break inside

when bombs and snipers dictate their diet,

..

when all the animals of hell

come crawling out from under mud

on sinews of metal clasping at the bone.

..

*

..

What precisely did they die for,

or limp home wounded with?

My grandfather never said, sitting in silence,

with his memories, in the garden of his weekend home

until he was forced to cross Germany’s borders

and escape into England two decades  on.

..

Great Uncle Martin could not say.

Splintered in 1915 by enemy fire, only his letters remain

regaling his dearest sister Röschen

with brotherly bravado, detailing requests

for the essentials: paper, food and pens;

whatever news might make it through the lines from home.

..

*

..

The candle’s spitting out its last

one hundred years on

but still the news is limited and grim.

..

The insect whine of war continues.

Tanks rumble through my kitchen

whenever the fridge fires up.

..

Commemoration wears an ugly, celebratory mask.

Its eyeholes stare us down like guns

and from its mouth a fine gas seeps.

..

‘Gas! Quick, boys.’ An ecstasy of fumbling

in the press for ways to not quite say

“We won, we won, we won!”

..

But we won nothing. The war continues

in fragments, though no one is yet

crazed enough to join the dots,

..

and all I can see in this quiet hour

is red wax stiffening on the candle

into the faces of all the people that I love.

..

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This poem was previously published on http://www.versopolis.com/

http://www.versopolis.com/poet/4/adam-horovitz

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Adam Horovitz is a poet, journalist and editor. He was born in 1971 in London and raised in Slad, Gloucestershire. He has appeared at numerous festivals and venues around Britain since the early 1990s and his work has appeared in a variety of magazines and anthologies, including 1914: Poetry Remembers (Faber, 2014). He has also been the poet in residence for Glastonbury Festival website (2009) and Borkowski PR company’s website (2005 to 2007).

He has released three pamphlets: Next Year in Jerusalem (2004); The Great Unlearning(2009) and Waiting for the Flame (Yew Tree Press, 2014). His first full collection of poems,Turning, was published by Headland in 2011. He was awarded a Hawthornden Fellowship in 2012. His memoir about growing up in Cider with Rosie country, A Thousand Laurie Lees, was published by the History Press in 2014. He was a judge for the Manchester Poetry Prize and the inaugural Bare Fiction poetry prize in 2014.

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