you can be so delightfully cold sometimes.
cold. literally and figuratively.
you’re much cooler than i thought you were.
you have amazing breasts.
that isn’t making you feel attractive to the world?
i know what i’d like to do tonight.
i didn’t think english girls had asses like that.
if you stay, i’m going to ask to fuck you.
people won’t be taking drugs
………and having sex in the street yet anyway.
i bet you’d also like to see my coffee table.
………to be honest i have a much nicer bed.
you have beautiful thighs.
am i coming home with you, then?
don’t fall in love with me.
do you mind if i go?
i was holding on to my testicles the whole time.
big, sweaty, meaty balls.
taking you outside alone was a weird thing to do
……..but for some reason i thought that was right.
i do sometimes decide i just need to escape,
……..though i would never leave anyone on their own.
i want to leave you in no doubt that
……..there exists no sexual feeling between us.
you’re a lot like my sister.
it’s because you’re young and hormonal.
i’m basically on a break with a girlfriend at the moment.
i’ve also been making an effort to distance myself
……..from everyone i met at uni.
i’m just messing, amy. why can’t you flirt?
girlfriend is a stupid word.
i’m a fascist.
is that why we can’t have sex?
i don’t think sleeping together broke the friendship, as you say,
……….so in what way was that a mistake?
because as far as i’m concerned that was a thing that happened.
i completely understand why you’ve asked me to
……..stay away from you for a while,
it’s entirely your choice, but i feel
……..it was merely a miscommunication after the fact.
however, i do think certain aspects of things need to be explained:
i actually know a disappointing amount of swingers.
i was aware that there may have been
……..greater forces at work the other night.
i’m faintly aware i need to stop drinking as much as i am.
i feel that i never really made any friends.
white straight men are the most prejudiced
……..against group in the modern day.
feminism has gone too far.
if women can’t climb the career ladder,
……..that’s their own fault for having babies.
i think you’ll change your mind about having them one day.
i think you think you could break me,
……..but you’re wrong. i could break you.
i would never hit you.
this is compromise.
this is how they treat women in my family.
she deserved it. she got on his nerves.
……..she was irritating and talked too much.
they were as bad as one another.
……..she engineered the divorce because it suited her.
i need to know if it’s bad, what you need to talk to me about.
……..why would you talk about that?
i must ask how much you
………have discussed what i said last night.
please, don’t write a poem about me.
………okay, but don’t expect me to publish it.
have i done something wrong?
i just don’t understand where this has come from.
i don’t know how i can help.
how am i not respecting you?
hey, just out of interest, was i lacking a big sweeping gesture
……..or were you just not interested in me?
are we still friends?
Amy Kinsman is a poet and playwright from Manchester, England. As well as being founding editor of Riggwelter and associate editor of Three Drops From A Cauldron, they are also the host of regular Sheffield open mic, Gorilla Poetry. Their debut pamphlet & was joint winner of the Indigo Dreams Pamphlet Prize 2017.